I can’t breathe today. Fear is choking me. I didn’t even know it was fear, that is until I sat and faced it.
I let it experience me, so that I could experience it. I sat as the fear pulsated through my veins, crept to the tips of my fingers, exploded in my stomach and inched along my throat. I felt it caress my thighs and tease my shoulders, tricking each and every part of me along the way into tensing. It worked its way to the back of my neck, massaging it into compliance of rigidity.
Before I knew it I was overcome. Instead of using my precious energy to fight it, I let it think it won. Sitting back I let fear play its game in my body. It tensed my muscles and started to even control the blood flow, moving it faster and slower at its whim. I felt it create tears and experienced the very resistance of its being that it created in my soul. [Read more…]